Sunday, February 18, 2007

This time last year...

How much can change in a year’s time? Really now!

I had issues back then too. Like how does one choose which restaurant to visit for possibly the last time in Ahmedabad - Athithi/Upper Crust/Havmor, how to say thanks to my friends who took me to beautiful Diu, how to conduct elections (and be fair about it)... Somewhere in all this there were worries about thesis/final project submissions, the good byes that would soon happen, finishing with all the shopping that Law garden could offer, wondering if Paras Bhai had returned all the clothes he’d taken to wash, checking if Sainom (God bless his soul) Maggi was a lot better than Bhej Maggi Bhit Cheese...

Did I call them "issues" and "worries"? Did I? God I’m ashamed of myself. Such petty matters. Bah!

Now I’m a grown up. Like the Little Prince, I now know that only those that I nurture and spend time on/with are really my own. Others are just "stuff" around me. People and things alike.

Some people say I am growing older. Well yes I am. Now I take grown up decisions - like "Should I buy Bhindi today, or can it wait till tomorrow", once the Bhindi is at home, "Should I make it the way I like it? For lunch or for dinner?". Bah even more now!

When such important matters need to be decided on, "Stuff" such as marriage, work, unpaid bills etc seem frivolous!

I really want someone else to make my decisions now. He/she has full authority. I will simply follow instructions. I always loved playing "Simon Says...", and people call me conceited!

I normally get depressed around my birthday. This time I’m not. Three days to go and not depressed... not yet at least. In fact, I’m proud of myself, tired to death of thinking, hopeful of good "stuff" to come...